Monday, December 31, 2007

Happy New Year!



Being the last post of this year I wish every one of the people who stops by a Happy New Year!!! I hope it will be a better year for everyone.

As for me... I will try to walk in the new year happier, with more clear thoughts... I will, at last, try to leave the past behind, and live the present... as for the future, let it bring what it has to bring for me... I will be right here, living NOW (not then, there nor somehow, somewhere)... just the HERE and NOW...

I hope to find you all happier next year!

Thanx for all the support (and everything else), sis... you are the best that could happen to me.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

“provocare”

Because I was “dared” (let's say) to write an optimist post… because the holidays are close and most people feel happy (including me somehow, but nothing related to the upcoming holidays)… I decided I can do this…

Since I started talking about the holidays… there are people who, due to their loneliness (which, around these times, is emphasized) feel even worse… who think nobody cares about them, who think they can’t rely on anyone… why now people? Isn’t it all the same during the year? Why now? Because you have more time on your hands, more time to feel pity for yourselves, more time to think of everything? Well, try doing something you like, something you normally can’t do during the year, when you have to work and all…

Some will say it’s the holiday spirit that makes people feel that way… it’s the time when everyone goes next to the one he/she loves, and those other people feel the loneliness strongly… But it’s actually all in your hands… It’s up to you to “feel” the holidays, to “live” the holidays.

I was there… but what good did it do to me? None... So I’m taking my advice… :)

During these times there is the biggest number of people who commit suicide, or at least think of it… it’s in The Long Way Down as well... So maybe it’s time you stop being pessimistic about life, about yourselves… try doing something for you. Life can really be beautiful, if you know from which side to look at it… of course it is never empty of ugliness or bad sides…

But at least there are more lights in the world these days... the world is bright.
Concluded in an “optimistic” note…
This is for you!


Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Saturday, December 15, 2007

RoadToNowhere

We never know where life will take us... we can't see the future. We can only see some possibilities... and the truth can even miss from those possible roads we "see". What lies in front of us is just a blured whater, we can only see down or up, left or right...

But where from this obsession with the future? Why can't we just live the present? There are people who do that... are they happier? Are people who live in the present happy (optimists), and those who try to understand the past and "see" the future unhappy (pessimists)? And if so... how is it better to live?

Is being a pessimist (as described earlier) a bad thing? Why? Because they think more, understand more, see more (good too, but mostly the bad sides of the road of life)?

(From this point of view) The "optimists" are kind of like the blind men... they walk around, being hapapy because they don’t see the real world, they have a world of their own, which they created so they can be happy... (they created their own happiness, but it is not entirely true). But what happens with them when they step into a big whole they didn’t expect? They fall in the water without being ready to get wet. I’m not saing this is necesarly a bad thing, because most of them adapt according to the new conditions of life... But I think I prefer being a pessimist...

So, being a pessimist is good too... and look how a "pessimist" can see the optimistic parts of this world we live in... :)


Sunday, December 9, 2007

Saturday, December 8, 2007

Friday, December 7, 2007

reality check


mirror mirror on the wall... tell me who is that person reflecting in you, the person inside you!?! tell me now... oh, you don't know? but you are supposed to see the things the way they are, undistorted, undisputed, un-however you want... you are the illustration of the reality as it is...

oh, maybe it's the eyes looking in the mirror that are distorted, fake, liars...

sometimes I look in the mirror... and I see... me(?) or what I think is me... sometimes I see something else... so which one is it? why do two pairs of eyes see things so different? maybe it is a too long story to be told here...

in my long experience of life I knocked myself of some very different mirrors... one showed me a very beautiful white leader couch with a small black wood coffe table holding a green bouquet of leafs, and another was filled with red armchairs posted in front of the big window, surrounding an empty black round coffe table.

what is reality?



Saturday, December 1, 2007

Pieces



I've seen your face, looked into your eyes... but still when I think of you, you're just an image, just a reflection of you, of what you are to me... and as time goes by, you are more and more a frozen memory, a blured image of the package which used to hold the "you" I've seen inside the real you...


I remember everything else, every little detail, pieces of conversation, touches, coffe, music... but not you. I wish I would have remembered you for a longer time... But you are far now...


Goodbye!